Jasmin

A year has past since our world was shattered with the death of our daughter Jasmin at 38 and a half weeks into my pregnancy. She was to be our third child, a sister for Nathan 5 and Kahlia 2.

They say time helps but I remember the sequence of events like its happening at this moment. My heart is aching still as it did on the 5th November 1995.

Our only support has been SANDS - some days just knowing they are there is the only thing that gets me through to the next day.

Trying to cope with two small children who need their Mummy more than anything in the world, with unsupporting family all around has been the hardest. I'm left bitter, angry and deeply saddened by the whole experience of grief.

Some days I just want to run and never stop. Hide and cry instead of trying to function like a 'normal' person everyday. I have two live beautiful children and an adoring, understanding husband, the precise memories of our darling Jasmin and another pregnancy in the early stages but its a struggle to be strong.

This is the first time I've ever put my heart on paper, I hope some of you can relate.

Karen Minissale